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Do you love you ex?: He is mah brother! (NOT BIOLOGICALLY)

What did you last cry over?: Whispers in my ear

What's the last mistake you made?: Shit, I can’t keep count anymore

Who was the last person you said I love you to?: “I LOVE YOU ASHA DON’T MISS ME!” to my coworker XD

Who last slept in your bed?: Me!

Were you with them?: Yup

Where do you want to be?: Outta here

Who do you want to be with?: Right now I just want to spend time with my niisan..

Do you honestly love your friends?: I really do

Who can always make you happy?: Ginny

Who do you love to talk to the most?: Ri!

Who hates you?: I don’t know?

Who do you hate?: I’m trying not to

What are you doing right now?: Avoiding dressing for work

What are you talents?: Drawing, Baa-ing

How often do you cry?: ALL the time!!

What did you do last night?: Homework

Would you ever go back out with an ex?: >_>

Have you ever used a condom?: Nope!

Are you a virgin?: hehehehehehe

Is your boyfriend/Girlfriend a virgin?: HA…I mean….

What's the last movie you watched?: I just watched Oliver and Company

Ever been in true love?: Yes

Ever smoked?: Ugh

Done drugs?: Nope

Gotten high?: Only contact

Ever gone running?: I prefer to just walk a lot…I hate running ><

How much do you weigh?: FUCK YOU

How tall are you?: 5'9”

Gone skinny dipping?: I want to!

Gone streaking?: Nobody wants to see that!

Played strip poker?: Nope!

Given a lap dance?: NOBODY WANTS TO SEE THAT

Made-out?: mmmmmmteal freek

Rolled on the ground w/ the opposite sex?: I always end up kneeing someone

Bungie Jumped?: FUCK NO!

Sang Kareokee?: I love it!!

Been wet with your clothes on?: XD Running around the rain with Neko and Vince makes Vince not happy in big puddles

Seen the opposite sex naked?: ewewewew penis ewewew

Made fun of a fat person?: …..well…….yeahhh…but only giantly obese six hundred pound people who get too much fatty foods on their subs

Laughed at someone?: Yep

Looked at someone funny?: Yep!
have you had "the talk" with our parents?: Um…I was told not to sleep around?

Been touched by the same sex?: *giggle*

Ever been Horney?: >< Fucking shoot me!

Looked at porn?: *closes computer* WHO TOLD YOU!!!!!!!

Own any thongs?: Yep, but I don’t wear them

Touched a genital of the other sex?:………………………………………….I kicked my brother in the penis?

Thought about sex?: HAHAHA YES! All the time!!!

Had a "dirty" dream?: I had a dream the other day about Ginny’s nipples >_>…it was weird!!!!! I woke up and was all “WTF?!”

Favorite animal?: Moose

Least favorite animal?: Snake

Most missed Memory?: New years a few years ago…

I turn my feverish head to the side as I wipe away an angry hateful tear and all I smell is your lotion. I miss the way you pressed your cold cheek to mine when I was upset...I miss how you would ask me to smile no matter how hard it was...all I want is you right now...it's been two months, don't you remember?...I'm sure it's there somewhere...I miss the way you'd sigh at me in irritation when I was too sleep drunk to comprehend your requests...I even miss the way you said I sucked in bed. Ouch much but still...it was a moment with you...I miss it...It's hard to cling to these...I need more, I crave it, I'm torn inside without you..I feel I'm at my breaking point and all I can do is scream and cry and hate...

As we grow together

You and I also fall apart

We learn from our mistakes

But we cling to them as well.

We are what we haven’t done

And we’ve destroyed what we have.

We need each other

We destroy each other.

And in this destructive need we have

We discover who we are becoming.

We’ve yet to decide if these persons are good

Or perhaps if these persons are bad.

Maybe we have just become people.

People who depend on each other

To Love, to Hate.

To build each other

And destroy our progress.

We kill

We build

We protect

We love

And it repeats

Over and over.

We don’t mean our apologies

Meaning them would mean we would change.

We don’t change.

We remain bitter, we remain loving.

We follow our footsteps in tangled patterns

Tracing our misdeeds and good fortunes

We know not who we are becoming.

We just know we are.

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Me talking now.

Okay...not really a poem..ish... I know we say hurtful things, but when we say them, we mean and don't mean them. Kind words are lost in feelings of despair, but we do not regret them while we wish that we did. We want to eat them away and say our love and goodnight...

But instead I know it is at least me that lays awake, unsure of what to say or do. Knowing that I am needy...but feeling that I am justified in being hurt. Feeling justified but hating myself, wondering if it's worth it to go on. Would it impact the world to lose me? I don't think it would. Humans have the natural ability to suppress...to move on...to love again. I don't die...because I wish to see progress in myself and the world...but when a teacher has failed to help a student, that teacher fails, and eventually, must fail that student and send them to another teacher. Am I the teacher, or am I the student?

Am I sorry or am I guilty? Am I just depressed?

I hurt another creature. The only creature that I've felt deserved my full trust. Yet at the same time this creature who deserved my trust did not accept the responsibility. Are we both to blame or is this just our nature? Do we hate each other? I think not. Being siblings, we never could. I could never give up my niisan, even if I were to refuse his speech for years and years. We love and we hurt each other. That is the relationship of brother and sister...we protect each other from the world, but eventually we destroy the very person we try to protect while still loving them.

I love my asshole brother because I am his bitchwhore sister.
I love my sweet niisan because I am his imouto-chan.

We love, We destroy.

I love you. Goodnight.

HALP!! My computer won't let me calibrate my colors correctly, it won't accept calibration downloads, and I can't find any online support to flippin help me! HALP ><><><><